Just need to write!!!!!

Well lets me just say WOW!!!!!!!!!!! This has been a real special few months out here in "D" land. I am moving this weekend to Colorado Springs, and start a new job on Monday with their metro system. Feel good about that, but what is going on here in Denver is SAD and sick. My future ex-son-in-law has become a bigger ass than he was before, which really is hard to believe. He is a drunk, a bum and an asswhole, and thats just the short list. So sad. He is missing out and will miss out on his sons life because of the jerk he has become. I have went to and have prayed many times for help from the Lord, but this probably has been the worse and hardest times I've had to call upon Him. It is only by His grace, His love, His strength and His protection that I will be able to come thru this without killing Greg. I really thought yesterday I would either kill him or myself. It was a rough day to say the least. Lord, bless my grandsons, Max, Cooper, Eli, watch over each of them and let them grow up to be the men of God you desire. Watch over my daughters, their families and let each of them realize the need the should have for you. Thank you Lord for your unconditional love, your watchful hand and most of all the strength you give to me to walk thru the darkness. There is a light at the end of this tunnel. Let me see it soon Lord.

Just need to write!!!!!

Just need to write!!!!!

A New Year

Well it has been a year and a half since I've moved to Colorado and much has happened. I have two new grandsons, Cooper, who I live with, and Eli, back in South Bend. Hopefully I'll be meeting him in March.
Much has happened to me personally. I unfortunately have become ill became of my Lupus. Thank God it has not attacked any of my organs, but it did take all my hair, and has caused me unbelieveable fatigue.
I went to the doctor two weeks ago and she said it was time to start applying for disability. Just seems weird that my life has taken a turn like this. All I can do is keeping praying that God shows me what and where I'm going or should go.
I'm still driving a bus, but not sure how long that is going to last. I am going to apply to RTD to see if I can get part time. I believe that will help.
Otherwise life goes on. Still have no friends out here which sucks but oh well. Trying to get back into the school thing, but that is not going well. Hopefully it will turn around soon.
Well anyone out there who might read this, let me hear from you.

Christmas 2009

It's hard to believe that Christmas is just days away. I am finding myself in a new city, new job, new surroundings this Christmas. I've been in Denver now for 5 months. Unbelievable. It's been a rough ride some days, but I am glad I am here. I have seen things out here that I only saw in post cards, or books. The beauty out here is something that only God could create.
I find myself with 2 grandkids this year. One that is only 3 weeks old. My 1 year old came and visited a couple of weeks ago and I was glad for that. He is walking and trying to talk. It was fun having him and his parents here, even tho it was only a couple of days.
Anyway, God has been good to me. Things are tough financially for me right now, but oh well. It's got to get better, right? I believe it will. Just have to believe and wait on God. He has it in his hand.
Well, who ever may read this Have a Happy Christmas and a Great New Year. See you in 2010. Keep me in your prayers as I keep you in mine. God Bless.

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My Journal

I don't know if anyone will read these but I am doing it for me. Getting out a lot of frustration and hurt and sadness that I am feeling at this time. Things out here are what one would say, "rough", right now. I am presently living with my daughter, who I never thought would be deceitful to me, and finding out that her life the past few years has been nothing but deceit. She has a "husband" and I use that phase with a slight chock, who has probably worked a year total since she met him. He is a liar, a cheat, a user and basically a bum. She continues to stay with him and is now days away from having a child. She left him a year ago because she did find out he was not working when he said he was. He came out here to Colorado and is doing the same bullshit he did in Indiana. She is now defending him hand over foot. I have been here 13 weeks, and he has yet brought home a paycheck. She continues to work full time even tho she is 9 months pregnant. He is a real "tool". I have now started to check into places to live as this is not going to work. I cannot even image what will happen when this child comes along and she asks him for help. I am 55 years old, have Lupus and work 40 hours a week. I cannot and will not be a babysitter or her and this childs support. She will be going back to Indiana if this turns South because of his lack of money, work, or whatever you want to say.
Disappointment in her goes beyond anything I can even say at this point. Her choices when it came to a husband is so disgusting it again is beyond words. Why would you want to have nothing, not only for yourself but for a child? Sad is the word I can only describe at this time.
Only time will tell what is going to happen. Whoever may read this, please pray for this family. It is greatly needed!!!